Been in such a lousy mood.
Haven’t wanted to cook or do most of the things I usually do for a while now.
Have been eating out probably too often, so tonight I collected husband and hopped in Miata (oops sorry MX 5 lol).
Drove to the state park with matchlight coals (yes, I know that’s cheating) and a handbasket with Nathan’s hot dogs, rolls, and the makings of a few s’mores. I still love s’mores!
Yummy. All the fun, tastes and smells of camping out without having to pitch and then break down a tent. lol.
Had just enough time to fit in dinner and have a little bit of time to relax before park closed just before dark.
I like going to the park late in the afternoon after they stop charging a fee in the summer.
Actually my favorite time to go to the state park is when it’s snowy.
It’s very quiet there in the winter and it’s fun to wander around. I love walking in the snow!
Went out to my favorite haunt later on and sat outside with a drink or two.
Talked to a few folk I know and met up with my son… He sat for a little with me talking too.
Nice evening. They closed up early since it was fairly quiet but let me stay outside while they cleaned up inside.
So I closed both the park and a restaurant bar, that doesn’t happen all that often.
Back home by 10:40pm. But at least I was smiling.
Not doing enough of that smiling thing as of late. Must practice it more.
I miss being able to come and go on my own like when I was in the city.
Really miss being in the city period.
So very much on my mind these days. I’m pretty sure losing my mom rearranged my priorities more than anyone truly realizes.
So much I have to straighten out. But I know I have to do it. I’m just not sure how to go about doing it.
If as they say “the truth will set you free,” then why do I almost always feel boxed in?
Because I tell the truth when most people opt out of it, or because I feel I can’t always tell the truth so I say nothing?
Not sure which is worse.
Someone said to me recently that “the truth is a relative thing that depends on how you see it.”
Not to me. The truth is the truth.
It’s true that “truth” is affected by beliefs but it’s still the truth as you see it… Lying is still lying.
Not even very profound.
G’night cyberspace.
I’m tired and tomorrow will be busy.
Maybe I’m just talking to myself here but it helps.
Laura
